I just dropped into a memory that set of a view of whole world of limitations and powerlesness. Like I suddenly see that, besides being traumatized, I myself am hostile towards other humans. I aslo see how I got there. And I hope I can get to the point where I can be myself again, in time. hopefully before this body, that I am in, has to die.
With your message on limitations I can now see that, in those few lines above, there is this complete set of limits. there is learned hostility, which feels sickning to myself. Also the hostility drives everyone away, which is the opposite of what I want. Also there is my age, the timespan that my body has been alive, which has made the character-deformation dang difficult to uproot since is has been there for so long. And there is my age in the sense that this body is well past half of it’s usual life-expectancy. So my body’s end is drawing near. And so is my chance to learn to put this all down and be who I am.
Your message made it a lot easier to put this overwhelming realization in some perspective that I can grasp.
Lisa,
I hope this following comment helps: Time is not your enemy. Sure, technically there is a limited span of opportunity while physical in a given life- but even so, importantly, all these moments that happened until now were meaningful. Now is the point of power. If you are ready now, then all the moments, no matter their count, were worth it. You are powerful right now. I send you love, dear sister!
Christian
A Walk in the Physical 
Thank you, Christian! Perfect timing as always.
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Christian, I wish we could have a long talk about your data on the human condition & my data from Chris Thomas (RIP).
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Like Richardgkidd said.
The timing is perfect.
I just dropped into a memory that set of a view of whole world of limitations and powerlesness.
Like I suddenly see that, besides being traumatized, I myself am hostile towards other humans. I aslo see how I got there. And I hope I can get to the point where I can be myself again, in time. hopefully before this body, that I am in, has to die.
With your message on limitations I can now see that, in those few lines above, there is this complete set of limits. there is learned hostility, which feels sickning to myself.
Also the hostility drives everyone away, which is the opposite of what I want.
Also there is my age, the timespan that my body has been alive, which has made the character-deformation dang difficult to uproot since is has been there for so long.
And there is my age in the sense that this body is well past half of it’s usual life-expectancy.
So my body’s end is drawing near. And so is my chance to learn to put this all down and be who I am.
Your message made it a lot easier to put this overwhelming realization in some perspective that I can grasp.
So thank you, Christian. ❤
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Lisa,
I hope this following comment helps: Time is not your enemy. Sure, technically there is a limited span of opportunity while physical in a given life- but even so, importantly, all these moments that happened until now were meaningful. Now is the point of power. If you are ready now, then all the moments, no matter their count, were worth it. You are powerful right now. I send you love, dear sister!
Christian
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