Sharing a link to a wonderful conversation I participated in with Greg Langley and Sally Taylor of Soul Explorer’s Podcast a few weeks ago!
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A Walk in the Physical 
.. “during the awakening” .. does that mean you already know what is comming .. ? Would I be able to know what’s comming if I’d do the work and start meditating .. ? Or would it be better for me to keep doing what I am doing, which is working through a human life of trauma, since I was a baby, and all the survival mechanisms I seem to have in place, that are now doing exactly the same as the traumatic experiences did ..
It’s no fun doing this last stuff .. But it does seem to free some space to sometimes dream of a time with no fear, no separation, no confusion, no stonewalling my self, and with some tiny sparks of a loving life, in freedom and connection ..
In other words; would it be better if I change priorities .. or would it be better for all of us if I keep walking my human experience …
hm ..
I guess I just answered that one my self .. didn’t I ..
Love you, CHristian !! Thanks for crossing my path !!
❤
Lisa
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Hi Lisa! Only you can decide what would be better for your walk. Meanwhile: Processing and healing the trauma that has been passed to us is holy work indeed. As we process our own fear, and (thus) meet the experience of life here in the physical in a new (more open, free, loving) way, that *is* the path by which we actualize the awakening. This isn’t about “knowing what’s coming” (I do not know what is coming). Yes, as we process our fear, we do very much “free some space” to actually *live* with (actualize) “no fear, no separation, no confusion, no stonewalling of the self.” Meanwhile, I have found meditation to be a very powerful tool in the healing and liberation process. I hope that helps at least some! If I haven’t addressed your question please let me know!
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Hello Christian (I use Google Translate so there may be grammatical errors, I hope it will be understandable). I am glad that you have a sense of purpose in your life, insights from the spiritual world, and I hope that you have been able to overcome the difficulties in your life.
For me, the situation is completely different. For years, my life has felt like a prison. I’m starting to feel like I’m in the completely wrong place at the completely wrong time, in the wrong generation and civilization. Everything here is too instant, superficial, violent without reason, too complicated and limiting. My life was tolerable until the COVID pandemic, even though it was bad then, after that the last 5-6 years have been unbearable.
My brain is constantly working at 200% and I cannot turn off analyzing, thinking and philosophizing about everything I see around me, how morbid and horrible it has become. Lately, I’ve started to feel like I’m hallucinating everything around me and seeing a lie, and my biorhythm has been disrupted. I can’t find peace in my own head, let alone with the world around me where it seems to me that 95% of people are real savages (even family members). They became so cruel with their savagery that I had to isolate myself and lock myself in a house with minimal contact, just so I wouldn’t have to witness these horrors anymore. People can no longer even speak normally with their mouths, let alone with their souls. I am so stressed and pressured that I no longer believe or accept that I am a human being. I literally wake up and feel disgusted to the point of feeling sick and not belonging to my own body and wanting to leave it to rot.
I am a person in my 20s and since the age of 7 I have been wondering what the point of witnessing this madness is. If I have truly chosen this, I feel great remorse and anger towards myself for what a fool I have been and a deep distrust towards the Source/God itself, the Guides and the act of Being because they seem so distant and reserved (corporate and bureaucratic) and it is impossible to change anything.
Thank you for sharing your experience because it meant a lot to me and I will continue to follow your work and site.
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dear J.K.
I hope you don’t mind my reacting to your post. It all sounds so familiar to me. That’s why I would like to try to give you some hope for better times.
What you are describing seems to resemble a trauma reaction to what happened during the Covid-period. This can pass by itself, but since it has been going on for 5 years now, it may be neccessairy that you give it special attention.
If you’d like to know more, you could pick up a secondhand copy of a “classic”/renowned/very well know book in this subject. That would be “the body keeps the score” by Hessel van der Kolk. It is translated in serveral languages.
Please ignore this if you already know that a book like that can not help you.
Hopefully someone else can help.
Kind regards,
Lisa
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Hello, Lisa. I also sincerely hope that better times will come.
You are right, COVID really caused a traumatic reaction in me. Also, in the COVID pandemic, everything that had been bothering and exhausting me my whole life began to culminate, in fact, I have been fighting with myself and everything around me since childhood, my life is more like a war (I became aware of everything around the age of 7, I think I already wrote about it somewhere).
In these 5-6 years, parallel to the pandemic and after it, things continued to happen that I did not have the time or strength to process, I feel like the last 5-6 years were like 20 years, too much of everything… I noticed that people around me also started to behave strangely, the environment changed, at least in my city and country. Also, so many strange things have been happening in my family for decades that at one point I thought maybe some black magic or dark force was at work, I was left without rational explanations.
Thank you very much for your comment, the book suggestion and I wish you all the best. Feel free to write me comments. Everyone’s voice and opinion are welcome.
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To be able to breathe a bit, you might want to change your perspective. From this side of the veil, and all the sufferings that come with, to the other side, where we will return to one day. Christian speaks of the latter. His book also helps. Just to know you are not this human being that suffers so much.
The book “A walk in the Physical” in all shapes, forms and formats, can be found here:
I hope it helps ❤
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