Christian has worked for over 15 years as a project manager for complex nuclear pump and valve manufacturing projects. Christian is also a public speaker, having presented at over 100 events.
When Christian was a young child he remembered his existence before coming to Earth. While that memory left him completely for his early adult life, it spontaneously returned at the age of 30 as Christian took up a meditation practice and went through a personal awakening journey. He also began to have Out of Body Experiences (OBEs). Christian now seeks to remind others in at least a small part of who we really are beneath the human “play.” Christian is the author of the book A Walk in the Physical, which attempts to succinctly describe the larger spiritual context in which we exist and the importance of love in our human journey.
Email Christian at: awalkinthephysical@gmail.com
A Walk in the Physical 
Hello, I tried searching for an answer to my question in your blogs, but I don’t see it addressed.
I came into this world naturally standoffish and I am having trouble reconciling two competing facets of an unintegrated vibration.
Interacting with people takes energy from me. It’s unpleasant. At the same time, I care very much about how other people feel and I don’t want to do anything to make them feel bad.
If I prioritize my wellbeing, I ignore other people and give off the impression that I am unfriendly or I don’t like them.
If I prioritize others’ wellbeing, I hemorrhage energy interacting with them and being engaging and friendly.
I would love to hear your thoughts.
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Hello Tamara! Navigating these types of competing “axes” is exactly what the human experience is about. Loving intent may possibly choose either “direction,” depending on the circumstance. Both being good to others, and also honoring and caring for ourselves, are important (in the latter, one point to note is that you can be of better service to the world when you are rejuvenated and strong). We should try to use a “quality of intent” as we decide when and how to choose either “direction” at any given time or in any given circumstance: that is, seek to authentically act from peace, love, and acceptance, rather than fear or ego (and sometimes a sense of obligation to choose one or the other arises from ego and fear). When we act from peace and right intention, sometimes we may even find that we might be able to choose to represent both directions simultaneously; sometimes we find that we are not so limited as it seemed. Meanwhile there is great value in having to make these choices within these “competing” axes- do your best in any given moment, and as you do so, sense that you are completely free as you make either choice. Much love sister! Also here is a blog post that may be pertinent: https://awalkinthephysical.com/2018/05/22/loving-intent-transcends-all-axes/
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Tamara,
Well you have perhaps already solved the issue you expressed having difficulty with, upon reading it, it became immediately apparent to me that there is an inbuilt anomaly which is being overlooked..
It is actually an erroneous assumption to conclude that interaction with other people somehow siphons all for’steals’ your energy from you.. well this may be felt to be subjectively true, it is not in fact what is actually occurring.
The truth of the matter is that, due to your own deep, indwelling fear, you yourself generate a friction within your energy field which, as you describe, usurps or steals your energy. You are the one who is doing this, in spite of the fact that it appears to be others. And the reason you are doing it is because of a futile attempt to defend yourself, if not consciously, then preconsciously
As death and dying researcher Elizabeth Cooper Ross has astutely noted, there are only two states of being in the world, love and fear, and we cannot be in both States simultaneously. Either one or another prevails at any given moment.
Love is an openness, a non-defended state in which we are in direct contact with the universe and all within it. Well, true, this can invite painful or challenging experiences, it is not, in itself, a destructive or potentially destructive condition. What is a destructive or potentially destructive position is the spiritually tense and uptight hypervigilance which causes us to walk through life on eggshells, ever attempting to avoid that which is threatening or uncomfortable.
It would be far better for you and your future journey to find it within yourself to open, expand, and allow life to enter you, almost in the sense as a woman opens herself to her man, rather than living in this every shrinking self-preservational illusion.
I wish you well in this endeavor.
JM
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I thought I was the only one in the world who remembers life before birth. I thought I was crazy. I’ve been told since I could talk that it is my imagination. Now that I know I’m not crazy, I’m not sure where to go from here. Once I saw your interview with Passion Harvest, I felt a very strong pull to reach out to whoever would listen. I didn’t know where else to go, or what to do now. But I can feel “it” calling me; whatever “it” is; a drive, a purpose, a being?
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Hello sister Alyssa! Great to interact with you while we are here in this place (we made it!). 😉 You are definitely not crazy. I didn’t share my PBE for about the first 7 or 8 years after the memory returned to me, just because, of course, our society doesn’t quite understand at this time. Since I shared though I’ve probably met 30 or 40 others who have similar pre-birth memories- so we are definitely not alone. 🙂 That is wonderful you are feeling the “calling”- please let me know if you sense if there is anything I can to do help. If you’d like you can also reach out privately by email at “awalkinthephysical@gmail.com”. Take care, and have a great day being human today!
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If you’re still looking for people to connect with, you can also email me (ambyrle at gmail.com). I recently went through some difficult circumstances and at a pivotal moment of finality, I thought, “There’s nothing left that I can do or try, so here comes the grief, despair, and hopelessness that I’ve been fighting so hard to prevent.” I just let go, stopped fighting, became receptive, and experienced the exact opposite of what I was expecting. Basically, the veil Christian talks about was lifted for like, 3 seconds, and I saw/understood everything. That was a couple months ago and I’m still trying to unpack/process it. The first thing I did was start listening to audiobooks about spirituality all day, every day, looking for things that matched what I’d seen. The books by Dr. Newton about life between lives were spot-on. I still struggle with feeling like I’m crazy. NO ONE in my life is into anything like this. I’ve only hinted at it with anyone. I haven’t been able to go into detail about what I’ve discovered (especially about my personal journey) with anyone because it just wouldn’t resonate with them. I was also shown my purpose and am working toward that, which I think will eventually lead to being part of a community of like minds, but it’s difficult right now not being able to talk to the people I’m closest to about it.
Christian: I watched your interview with Wisdom Soup on YouTube and every time you explained why you couldn’t answer/describe something, I wanted so badly to be able to tell you, “DUDE I KNOW RIGHT.” Let me just say, I totally get it. I kept laughing (affectionately) at people questions and thinking, “They want words, lol. There are no words!!” Also: because it was necessary for the goal of this incarnation, I was born with the veil incredibly thin and you’re right, it makes everything so much harder, and I’m not sure it’s possible to explain why to people who haven’t felt it. I was basically suicidal the whole time I was growing up because being here was so freaking painful. I constantly thought, “It’s so heavy here, everyone is so horrible to each other, everything is wrong here, I just want to go back.” I didn’t think too deeply about what “back” meant; I just remember feeling that so strongly. Death as a concept never even registered with me. I fell asleep every night praying the same thing, “God, please let me not wake up here in the morning. Please let me come home.” I know that all sounds pretty awful in homo sapien terms, but I think you’ll understand. I don’t pray for that anymore. I understand the blessing now 🙂 I feel like I was actually born at that awakening moment I described above and now I’m excited about everything. I’ve only just begun to do what I came here to do. I don’t even know what all it is yet, but I know it’s a lot and it’s big and will involve helping a lot of people (which is what I always wanted most). I’m just following Spirit’s guidance and enjoying the ride. I’m even excited about the nightmarish 44 years that got me to this point, ha ha! I understand them now. Anyway, I just wanted you to know that I’ve seen what you’ve seen and I totally grok everything you talk about, especially the stuff for which there are no words. I’ve just recently started meditating using a course from the Monroe Institute (hemi-sync) so I can deepen my connection and gain more clarity about the guidance I receive. You probably have more people to talk to about this stuff these days, but feel free to contact me if you like 🙂 Thank you so much for sharing. It really helped me feel less crazy.
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Hi Amber,
I just sent you an email – basically asking if you are still open to new conversations/contacts as per your reply above. I hope you are well 🙂
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Hi Christian,
I watched your talk on The JeffMara Show. It was one of the best talks I have heard in many years. As most people I have had so many questions about life and death. I have been on a quest for my entire life searching: 12 step groups, religions, spirituality, astrology etc.
I just found JeffMaura YouTube a few weeks ago and have been binge watching. A lot of the other talks on JeffMara are really good but your talk provided so much information and answers I have never heard before. You brought together so many concepts and went a step further to provided the “because” to your ideas. You kept saying, ‘because of this, because of that’….Why? “because”….. I felt things click and actually sobbed crying with relieve.
One of my favorite ideas you explained was that we did not come here to experience pain. You said, we did not contract for pain. We agreed to a contract for certain RESTRAINTS. I also loved your explanation about the veil and the reason there is a veil and furthermore that we actually agreed to the restraints and taking on the veil.
I have studied christianity, yoga and hinduism which I have never understood the concept of karma or reincarnation. Your talk gave me a completely new perspective on these same ideas that finally allowed me to understand the reasons for such ideas.
I am so happy your talk created so many new questions. Now, I can go deeper in my search.
I can not thank you enough.
Sivapriya
PS the links on your website to Facebook and Twitter did not take me anywhere. Can you please provide the exact names of your locations there?
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Thank you dear Sivapriya for your amazing kindness! I’ll have to check out the FB link- I am just on FB under my name. I don’t have a Twitter account. Your encouragement means a lot. I wish you the very best in your search! And, thank you for being human today! Enjoy it! 🙂
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Hi Christian, I found your story intriguing. It’s the first that I’ve heard similar to mine. I don’t remember picking this life, but I do have a very large “window” through the veil and just know a lot of what happens on the other side. My story is that right before I was conceived, my mother had a miscarriage, then I immediately came along. But more than that, is that I was born two months early, at the same time the first baby would have been born, which makes sense as my birthdate is very important to me for many reasons. I totally understand the fighting and wanting to go back. Thanks for sharing your story.
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Dear Christian, I recently “found” you on youtube….what you have said has been life changing for me. I can’t thank you enough. You are my very own Christmas present to me!! Thank you thank you thank you!!!
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Hello, Christian. I picked up your story from Nexus Newsfeed and listened to three videos of your pre-birth descriptions. Fascinating. Are you familiar with Welsh psychic Chris Thomas? He wrote 11 books on the human condition from the perspective of a psychic healer. Much of what you talk about dovetails with his material, which is rather extensive. He and his wife had a website at one time when their healing practice was active. It crashed or was hacked and I took it upon myself to gather up all of his information and post it on my website. It is fantastic that you regained your memories and I’d like to extend an invitation for you to investigate more of Chris’s material as it might expand your horizons even further. It is up to you:
https://cosmic-observation.com/
I have a collection of his articles, essays, mini-books, phone interviews and video interviews. I also belong to a global group the collaborates on his material (and happenings all over the planet). I have shared your videos with them. Two members of my group know Chris Thomas, personally. One of the things that Chris could do, at one time, was see a person’s “soul origin.”
I hope I hear from you.
~Victoria
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Hi, I was actually going through these near death experiences and rebirth thing for while and I came across your streaming session with Guy Lawrence. And I just don’t get it really, I don’t get the part where these beings have to choose where to spawn. Like…. Why does it have to be a place like Earth lifetime after lifetime? Like…. How is the experience supposed to be good and fruitful in a place where conflict, ignorance and scarcity exists? Do these beings go anywhere on another planet? Also, why is this veil is so important and why do most people become unable to break through it? How do they know what they’re supposed to do about their when they know almost nothing due to the veil and therefore aren’t in control? Like for me… It is complete perfect deprivation, suffocation and isolation and I literally feel like the male version of Greek mythology Cassandra. I also feel like I’m a character in a very slowly unraveling horror thriller movie that has no horror themes but existential horrors that I only face in silence because whenever I try to include anyone in it they just dismiss it.
If there’s no problem on the other side that is supposed to be heaven then should it be really be called heaven at all? I mean surely they’d find more experience there than on Earth. Another thing is that there’s this possibility of failure, Or even a futile life where I could die as soon as I’m born due to external complications or even before that like in your case due to fear.
There’s also the issue of not accepting powerlessness but at the same time I’m acknowledging reality because I frankly feel like I’m cornered by reality and I want to bypass that but unfortunately I’m Middle Eastern. I’m not trying to dismiss anything I’m just trying to make sense out of the common things between various accounts of reincarnation and near-death experiences for myself. If these people are used to not having problems on the other side, Why are they causing them and sabotaging other people’s experiences and completely desensitizing them? Another thing besides this point is that I’m not overly trusting with spirituality because one of the main issues with humans is their capacity of compulsive lying with the materialistic motives or need for attention which degrades their authenticity as a race in general. I also feel confused about the variety of near death experience accounts that are based on various religions for some reason, Like…. Is there various Afterlife factions?
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Hi, I was actually going through these near death experiences and rebirth thing for while and I came across your streaming session with Guy Lawrence. And I just don’t get it really, I don’t get the part where these beings have to choose where to spawn. Like…. Why does it have to be a place like Earth lifetime after lifetime? Like…. How is the experience supposed to be good and fruitful in a place where conflict, ignorance and scarcity exists? Do these beings go anywhere on another planet? Also, why is this veil is so important and why do most people become unable to break through it? How do they know what they’re supposed to do about their when they know almost nothing due to the veil and therefore aren’t in control? Like for me… It is complete perfect deprivation, suffocation and isolation and I literally feel like the male version of Greek mythology Cassandra. I also feel like I’m a character in horror thriller that has no horror themes but existential horrors that I only face in silence because whenever I try to include anyone in it they just dismiss it.
If there’s no problem on the other side that is supposed to be heaven then should it be really be called heaven at all? I mean surely they’d find more experience there than on Earth. Another thing is that there’s this possibility of failure, Or even a futile life where I could die as soon as I’m born due to external complications or even before that like in your case due to fear.
There’s also the issue of not accepting powerlessness but at the same time I’m acknowledging reality because I frankly feel like I’m cornered by reality. I’m not trying to dismiss anything I’m just trying to make sense out of the common things between various accounts of reincarnation and near-death experiences for myself. If these people are used to not having problems on the other side, Why are they causing them and sabotaging other people’s experiences and completely desensitizing them? Another thing besides this point is that I’m not overly trusting with spirituality because one of the main issues with humans is their capacity of compulsive lying with the materialistic motives or need for attention which degrades their authenticity as a race in general. I also feel confused about the variety of near experience accounts that are based on various religions for some reason, Like…. Is there various Afterlife factions?
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Source has no consciousness because source has no ego.
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‘Source’ is The Absolute. Consciousness is the experience of Knowing It Self. ‘Ego’ what is it? If there is ‘ego’ it is only that which tries to over-ride Consciousness because It has forgotten It Self. That is the so called veil.(It likes to play hide and seek!) Know (thy) Self. There is only Consciousness, Awareness experiencing It Self, and ‘you’ ARE THAT!
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Consciousness does not require ego to exist, ego requires consciousness to exist. 🙂 I feel that Source is ultimate consciousness, ultimate Isness- and that transcends ego, because it transcends all fear and the illusion of separation that might give rise to fear. (Ego arises from fear.)
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I came across one of your interviews and it is fascinating to me. I myself have experienced a small level of out of body experiences which intrigue me but when it happens I seem to exist in a slightly different version reality. For instance, one time I was floating in my room but the wardrobe was in a different place. Anyhow, I hope you can help me to further understand the bigger picture about ‘what is it all about’ by answering a few of my (weird?) questions:
1. What role do you think animals play? Did they choose to be here just like us in order to grow their sole?
2. Kind of the same question for all living things including plants for example, does every organic thing have a purpose?
3. What is the end goal? Is there a point in which you can grow no more as a human and no longer return to the physical world?
4. What about humans who have no chance to grow, such as a baby that only lives for a few months? Was that by choice, as in the sole/spirit attached decided it can’t cope with the choice it agreed to make?
Thank you for taking your time out to answer me.
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Hello sir! I speak to several of these questions in my book (which is available for free on the book page of this site), see Part 3 Q&A. Meanwhile I’ll just make some brief comments to your four questions here, and paste a few quick excerpts:
What role do you think animals play? Did they choose to be here just like us in order to grow their sole?
(1.) We aren’t human or animal; we are spirit (consciousness) that has the experience of being human or animal. So while the experience of being human or animal are very different experiences, there is not a fundamental distinction between the two. (Yes, they choose to be here just like us.)
Kind of the same question for all living things including plants for example, does every organic thing have a purpose?
(2.) All experience has purpose. And experience is not limited to just this organic thing or that, though they are very different forms of experience. From Part 3:
Q: Do all beings have a soul? What’s the cutoff for souls? Plants? Mold? Bacteria?
Bodies don’t have souls, souls have bodily experiences. Think of consciousness as the fundamental substrate, which transcends form. It can then utilize (or “be”) various forms within creations of form that exist within itself; and the extent to which it can utilize those forms – have the experience of being them and growing experientially through them – depends heavily on the nature of the form and the rule-set of its local reality. So for instance a human with a brain is capable of a much different cognitive and intellectual experience than, say, a mouse. But spirit can be (is) the mouse, too, and can experience the universe from that very different perspective. Indeed, spirit is experiencing every aspect of its Creation, in this universe and beyond, and it is all Life. What we tend to think of as “alive” is an extremely narrow definition, since we tend to think of Life only as a physical form, whereas in fact consciousness itself is not physical but contains all physical forms within itself.
What is the end goal? Is there a point in which you can grow no more as a human and no longer return to the physical world?
(3.) From Part 3:
Q: What is the purpose of reincarnating over and over again? What is the point? What is the end game?
The expansion of joy and love – the expansion of Beingness – is its own lasting reward. The soul develops as it integrates experience, and various experiences yield various opportunities which ultimately serve that expansion of joy and love. The processing and overcoming of fear is synonymous with the expansion of love. Incarnation offers opportunities of perspective, growth opportunities, and opportunities to integrate fear or express love. Regarding an “end game”: The human mind, which perceives reality as being linear, tends to want to understand a “beginning” and “end,” but Beingness has no beginning, and it creates as it so chooses in an ever-evolving symphony of expansion and refinement.
What about humans who have no chance to grow, such as a baby that only lives for a few months? Was that by choice, as in the sole/spirit attached decided it can’t cope with the choice it agreed to make?
(4.) All experience is valuable. Sometimes a very short physical experience is by choice (whether by pre-plan or by choice to reject it once here)- and even if it is short, it may be very high value, indeed! We humans tend to have a very narrow and conditioned understanding about what “accomplishment” means- but to the spirit, the ability to have experience, and to experience and express love even in simple brief interactions, is powerful and meaningful.
I hope that helps sir!
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Christian, many thanks for replying. I struggle to find answers in today’s society as we all seem to be overwhelmed with day to day activities. As you have very much covered my questions above I am going to invest in your book (something I really never normally do), as I can spend forever coming up with more questions.
One other question if you don’t mind, as I think it is fundamentally important for me to understand the wider picture:
To use a computer game analogy, do you ‘level up’ as you gain more and more experience? Taking the spirit guides as an example, are they on a higher plane?
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Crudely speaking, yes, we “level up” as we gain more and more experience. And, especially as we play on harder difficulty levels. We grow or evolve in certain “qualities”- and often our spirit guides are those who excel at certain qualities that might be helpful for us. Guides also have a “vantage point” that we as characters in the game generally don’t have at the moment (from the game character’s level anyway).
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And the experience is for ALL, not just ourself. So, aside from the baby gaining, others who were affected also gained in some way.
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Dear Christian,
I came across an interview with you on YouTube. Thank you so much for sharing!!!
Listening to you immediately increased compassion and appreciation for myself! More than 6 decades
and I’m still here 🙂 inspite of many ego spaces I seemed to be lost in (struggle, resistance …).
Now I’ve the best time in my life after getting to “know” Salvador (a group of light beings channeled by
Christiane Hannsmann). I love doing exercises and meditations. I’m becoming more and more aware
that I’m home in the physical AND the spiritual world in the NOW moment (not easy to explain in words).
Have a great time in 2022!!!
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Hi Christian,
I read your book, almost the whole thing in one day this past Monday Jan. 3rd, after watching an interview you gave on YouTube. The interview was really fascinating so I felt compelled to read the book as well. While I have no memories of pre-birth or OBEs/NDEs, I certainly ascribe to the beliefs that you have noted in your book. I do believe we come from a place of Love and it’s what our essence is really all about. I wish I could experience something profound and wonderful that many folks such as yourself have and I am absolutely open to having occurrences of the like. I have had a few odd unexplainable things happen over the years, but nothing intense or life-altering by any means. I meditate, well try to anyway, but maybe one day with continued practice, I can hope to experience a “glimpse”. But I digress. Reading your book has had an interesting effect on me. When I started reading it on Monday- and have since gone back to read additional sections and re-read others, my heart seems to swell! It’s like my soul is getting joy from reading this or something. I can be in the most neutral mood and suddenly, my solar plexus to mid-chest area are…giddy? I’m not sure how else to explain it, but it is an enjoyable feeling so I try to hold onto it and meditate right after reading, just focus on that area of my body and the feeling, (which is a challenge because my mind loves to wander and chatter incessantly and blah blah blah…). I can only assume that on a spirit level, (on an unconsciously conscious level?) what you say in your book is resonating within me. I wish I could remember something- anything(!) about being in spirit but the veil is strong with this one- I must have made them promise to keep it like a steel trap or something, haha!
Anyway, I just wanted to share my thoughts and experience reading your book and watching your interview. You are doing great things by spreading this message, I am grateful I found it. Thank you!
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Hi Christian,
I read your book, almost the whole thing in one day this past Monday Jan. 3rd, after watching an interview you gave on YouTube. The interview was really fascinating so I felt compelled to read the book as well. While I have no memories of pre-birth or OBEs/NDEs, I still ascribe to the beliefs you have noted in your book. I do believe we come from a place of Love and it’s what our essence is all about. I wish I could experience something profound and wonderful that many folks such as yourself have experienced and I am absolutely open to having occurrences of the like. I have had a few odd unexplainable things happen over the years, but nothing intense or life-altering by any means. I meditate, well try to anyway, so hopefully one day with continued practice, I can experience a “glimpse”. But I digress. Reading your book has had an interesting effect on me. When I started reading it on Monday (and I have since gone back to read additional sections and re-read others) my heart seems to swell! It’s like my soul is getting joy from reading this or something. I can be in the most neutral mood and as soon as I begin to read, my solar plexus to mid-chest area are…giddy? I’m not sure how else to explain it, but it is an enjoyable feeling so I try to hold onto it and meditate right after, just focus on that section of my body and the feeling, (which is a challenge because my mind loves to wander and chatter incessantly and blah blah blah…). I can only assume that on a spirit level, (on an unconsciously conscious level?) What you speak of in your book is resonating within me. I wish I could remember something -anything (!) about being in spirit but the veil is strong with this one- I must have made them promise to keep it like a steel trap, haha!
Anyway, I just wanted to share my thoughts and experience reading your book. You are doing great things by sharing this message. I am grateful I found it. Thank you!
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My dear brother Christian,
I just had to send you an email. Do you know what a gift you are? Do you have any idea at all? I want to thank you sincerely from my heart, for putting yourself out there. I just love you to pieces….it is hard for me to find the words to express how much you and your words have affected me…what a gift…what a blessing to all of us ‘journey men’….you are like morsels of food to the starving…I truly love you, and can’t thank you enough for sharing YOU with the world…we need you! Much love and blessings to you and your loved ones….peace…Your sister, Dianna
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A note to Joseph Marcello (who posted a comment on 15th September 2021, above). Just a quick correction: the researcher you mentioned was actually called Elisabeth Kubler-Ross (and NOT Elizabeth Cooper Ross, as you wrote; she spelt her first name with an S [EliSabeth, not EliZabeth], and her surname was Kubler-Ross [with a German ‘umlaut’ accent over the letter ‘u’], not ‘Cooper Ross’.
She was a Swiss-American psychiatrist.
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Dear Christian,
I recently watched your interview (and also Akerke’s) on Melissa’s Love Covered Life Podcast and was deeply moved and inspired by all of you to discover my true self and live the rest of my life with a higher consciousness.
I assume you must be terribly busy, but I hope that you could help me with one big dilemma I have on the spiritual path:
Regarding the larger reality, in which we actually all come from the same source and are “one”, and how we are in fact all connected, everyone is a part of everyone else, no matter what shape or form…that is, I am no different from that annoying fly I just swatted and killed or the chicken whose eggs I am taking to eat, or the faceless beef I had for lunch. Although I find my perspectives changing and I have always been respectful to nature (though now I appreciate the many wonders of nature and life more than I did before), I am not there yet that I can feel that I LOVE everyone and every living thing. For about two years I had been trying to eat mostly vegetables and eliminate meat consumption for health AND animals, but it did not really work as well as I had hoped. The vegan or vegetarian diet gave me some uncomfortable symptoms that I did not expect, and sufficient protein intake is tricky as I get older and develop allergies and sensitivity to some commonly used plant-based sources like nuts and beans.
My dilemma is: Is it a contradiction to live the “human way of life” while we are on this planet, which entails killing pests (I fear most insects but will generally leave them alone unless they won’t leave me alone!), eat organic products (animals AND plants for that matter) for nutrition at the same time as we try to embark on the “spiritual journey”? How does one reconcile these two apparently opposing “states of being”, if they are reconcilable at all?
I would appreciate some guidance if you have the answer, or even just your personal thoughts on this issue.
Thank you so much, and I look forward to hearing from you! 💗
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Thank you for your kindness Tricia! Your question is personal but I’ll just share a few thoughts. As with so many elements of the human experience, I feel your question comes down: quality of intent (love vs fear). That is, I feel we need to be honest with ourselves and discerning about why we are making the choices we are- including choices about diet, or removing pests. A few years ago my family discovered we had head lice- and I thought about what it meant that I was killing these pests. But, I felt even with calm clarity that removing them was appropriate for the care of my family’s health- we are human right now, after all, and I feel it is reasonable to say we do not need to tolerate parasites. We do need to be discerning, and indeed we should make the best choice we can for the well being of all other living things- but also, this is a big “play”- and we are free to make the choices we will on the stage concerning other participants. In other words, I feel it is OK to be reasonable in these decisions (while staying vigilant that “being reasonable” is not just the ego’s latest excuse). I hope that helps at least a bit!
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Hi Christian,
I’ve watched a few of your interviews and read some of your book.
I would like to know if you have an answer for how I might reconcile the pre-existence of souls and my Catholic faith.
Thank you for sharing your story and knowledge.
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Hi Steven,
Your question is very personal. I am very sensitive about attempting to speak to or about someone’s faith or belief system. I was raised Lutheran (sometimes called “Catholic Light” 😉 ), and saw the world deeply through that lens for much of my life. In fact I taught confirmation class, was on the church counsel, was an assistant minister in my congregation for 20 years, and even almost went to seminary! So, I understand the value of a faith system. Meanwhile, our true nature does precede and transcend the Earthly context. So, while it is indeed very valuable for us to use the forms of Earth to pursue the divine (religious traditions) while we are here, it is also not correct to assume that our given tradition will be fully accurate in every way. Indeed, NO words or form at all can possibly express the fullness of the real higher spiritual context in which we exist, our real multidimensional nature, or the absolutely unspeakable and amazing nature of God or the unconditional love of God. Those things are far, far bigger than any Earthly language or set of beliefs! So, while we may possibly grow toward them through a certain Earthly religious tradition, it is also valuable to be willing to explore beyond where their limits are no longer helpful for us. The Spirit can help us work through this, as we are ready. I am reminded of a Silver Birch quote to the effect of: “When the individual is questioning, the soul is ready” (something like that). As a part of my own awakening process I very much had to go through the process of being humbled to acknowledge where my previous belief system was limiting- but assuredly, the truth- the actual truth of love, freedom, and joy- is so, so enduring and wonderful that, ultimately, no lesser representation will do. In the end, we have *nothing* to fear, ever! God’s unconditional is that full and that perfect. Please let me know if there is any way I can help. Much love brother!
-Christian
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Thank you Christian for such a long, thoughtful, heartfelt, quick, in-depth and loving response. It is an honor to receive a response from you. Much love and keep up the amazing work brother!
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Dear Christian
Er,….WOW! I came across you “by accident” 😉 a few months ago (around mid-2022) via YouTube and have been blown away by the resonance, sustenance, deep deep kindness and loving messaging I have received for my personal, whacky, journey by listening to your various interviews and also from the phenomenal conveyance-ness (new word!) of deeper understanding through your book, A Walk In The Physical.
I’m leaving a comment here for two reasons:
1) To Offer My Sincere Gratitude 🙏For me, you have been both my ER dept as well as an ongoing Rehabilitation Ward for my journey to date (despite the short time of coming across your service) and the words you convey have given me hope, relief, encouragement, courage, strength, incremental belief in myself, and a fantastic pointer to what I need in the now and also for the long-term. I’m so grateful for your humble “way-shower”-ness (another new word!). May the blessing I receive from your service be multiplied a g-zillion times more back to you and your family.
2) I have a Question emanating from your interview with Natalie Higgins (which was utterly Knock-Out!!). You talk about “processing” our [personal] fears.
My question is what exactly does “processing” mean – how would you describe that? I’ve heard mostly about “facing” your fear, but the reason I’m being a tad pedantic is that I feel that the energy behind those two words (ie. a) processing, b) facing) are slightly different – in my mind anyway.
For me, “facing” your fear is about ‘bracing’ which feels stiff and repellent and a kind of “oh well, as long as I’m still standing intact by the time the storm passes, I’ve faced my fear” but in reality, my being is still as “stiff as a board” at the end of the experience as it was at the beginning in order to whether the ‘storm’ and come out the other side.
But when you mention “processing” the fear, I’d love that to be unpacked a little bit more (perhaps with some examples?) as I’m really trying to navigate my own gargantuan fear bucket that I have ‘apparently’ taken on for this lifetime. 🙄
I have more of that stuff (fear) than you can shake a stick at (lol) due to personal trauma that started before I was physically born and then continued ongoing until I left home at 18
But also, it’s become clear to me that I’ve been “designated” (or perhaps I chose) to clear/process *multitudinal* ancestral/generational trauma in this current life time also1
Quite frankly, thank folks “note” and also #beammeupScottie now! # takemehome, etc, etc.
Meanwhile, to do this task/journey, do I just ‘face it’ and does that count in terms of journeying, or what exactly is “processing”? How do I know I’m moving forward, changing the momentum if I don’t know how to approach my fears and what counts as approaching them?
And at the end of the day, where does this particular and personal lifetime and personality (ie. little me) fit in to it all? Is she just a ‘sacrificial mule’ for her own lifetimes’ bad choices as well as carrying the burden of processing her ancestors crap/trauma in order to “further” humanity or expansion?
Sorry for getting a little ratty about it all.
Thank you 🙏🌈⭐
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Sam,
Thank you for your overwhelming kindness!
Processing fear (fully coming to terms with our experience and integrating even very low vibrations) is generally not about stiff and repellent bracing. While yes sometimes we just need to very assertively “put our foot down” and do something we are terrified of anyway, stiff and repellent still denotes resistance. While the process of processing fear will be unique to each individual, I have found at least in my own case that, metaphorically, processing is more about having so much allowing that the vibration of [whatever feeling you are resisting] can fully rise up and resonate through your unresistant body (and because you are loose, it does not cause damage). (In that metaphor, the “body” is your present awareness.) It is a FULL feeling of the root negative perception that your circumstances have seemed to prove to you (a negative self perception or negative perception about the world- for instance a negative self perception of worthlessness, powerlessness, lack of freedom, or shame). That does not mean a replaying of the thoughts and stories, whether proactively or otherwise- but rather, a full allowing of what we are actually feeling, in the body, as it may arise. Note also that allowing doesn’t mean having the intent of “OK I’m going to allow you because I want to get rid of you” but rather, “I am going to fully experience you and allow you- no matter the length or depth of the sensation- I allow all of it, without any resistance whatsoever, right now.” If it’s the root fear, it will feel so big that it feels like it will destroy you when you feel it. (It won’t. Your consciousness is deeper than your deepest feeling.) But, having full intention of full allowing means you may need to be willing to let it destroy you if it wishes.
What action can we take to enable this process? That is a complex question, but here are just two ideas I have found to be powerful and important. First: simply allow and fully feel (without judgment) whatever arrives in this moment. That is, we don’t need to “go looking for trouble”- life will tend to quite naturally stimulate our fears on its own- and we just need to meet this moment- and nothing more. (In fact, we never need to meet more than what is exactly happening in this moment, rather than dwell in the dreams of thoughts about the past or future.) If we fully allow and fully experience- without judgment- whatever is happening in this moment, that is like metaphorically working our way down in the branches from the top of the tree down towards the roots. The roots (root fears) will likely not be immediately visible, even if we think we want to see them, because the ego has done its job well and has covered them up with 800 layers of other stories and protections- so we just handle (allow and fully feel without judgment) whatever moment, sensation, perception, feeling, or pain is rising up in this moment.
Second: we can listen to the body and fully experience the body, including the negative sensations. The body is a wonderfully deep, dense, well-remembering experience tool. Its pains, its memory are not something to be resisted. When we fully allow our feelings in the body, we find they are often tied to a lot of the energetic stuff that we have not yet processed. In my own case of healing from PTSD, I went through about 5 years of EMDR therapy with a counselor, and EMDR therapy always starts with the question “what negative feeling are you feeling in the body”- and then following it. Indeed, any time we are feeling anything negative- whether physical or otherwise- it typically means there is some “yet unresolved” issue beneath it that we can process. In that case, negative sensations can be a great signpost to help us find what yet needs to be processed.
I shared the following story in the Introduction section of the book but: When my father was a child laying in his bed afraid of the monsters in his closet, it caused him great distress. Eventually, tired of being tormented by fear, one night he got up and charged into the closet to face the monsters. He was ready to die, if necessary, because he was so sick of being afraid. When he finally went and looked, he found no monsters in the closet. My father is no longer afraid of the closet, because he went and saw that there are no monsters. Our fears are like that!- when we actually go fully feel whatever we have been resisting, it is like charging into the closet- yes, that may be a ridiculously poignant painful emotional powerful overwhelming moment- but when we actually see there was nothing to be afraid of, the fear vanishes like mist. In other words, it wasn’t some great force that needed to be rigidly overcome, rather, it was a mis-perception that existed because we rejected something, resisted some feeling(s), resisted the story of reality (“how reality must be”) that we built on top of those rejectable feelings.
An example from my own physical life: When I was in in the hospital in Cheng Du China after my heatstroke, I had this profoundly negative perception moment when I was laying in the hospital bed where I fully felt, “I cannot escape agony; I am powerless.” My PTSD “helped” lock that unbelievably horrible sensation away. In fact, that entire moment got locked away in a box: I couldn’t even remember that week, or even much before that even in my entire physical life, it was so deeply locked away! A few hundred layers up in the resulting ego web, I felt a nearly constant gnawing dense sensation in my diaphragm. Through EMDR I started with that sensation many times, and “watched” without judgment where it led. I found layer after layer of stories, each tied to some negative self-perception- and there were many times I thought “oh man this fear is so great, it must be the root!”- and yet I still suffered. It wasn’t until several years into the therapy one day that mighty titanic fear became available for me to see- it was like a burning hot sun of terror, and felt too big for me to process. But- I fully experienced it, right then. Right there in the couch of a therapists office, maybe 7 years after the event. I fully felt it: all those feelings were still buried in there! I wept, and wept- I felt, and felt- through the corners of my body and being. It felt far too big- but I allowed it and felt it anyway. Little did I know, incredible healing was enabled just by my allowing and feeling what I had actually felt before but had locked away.
This response is getting long, but I hope some of those thoughts help, dear Sam! Your journey is very, very important- please remain strong, and full of hope, as you engage the more rigorous inky shadows of your deep story here on Earth!
With love and great respect,
Christian
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Dear Christian
I am deeply humbled both by the content of your reply and also the time it would have taken you to write it 🙏🏽🙏🏽 Thank you so much.
Gosh, in some ways, it feels like we’re doing impossible work here, especially with what seems in 3D to be the amount of time it takes, but also I realise this lifetime is but a drop in the ocean.
I really appreciate the personal examples you’ve shared as this helps to understand a little if what’s involved in the work or how it might apply. I think my biggest fear is facing (processing) fear and feelings, which is a bit like saying I’m fearful of oxygen and food! I guess this stuff just goes with the territory 😊
I’m also aware though that this work develops attributes such as courage, perseverance, trust, etc.
Thank you for your encouragement. I’ll be reading your response several times to try to fully absorb the great depth and insight in it – and to continue the art of The Application of Impossible Things (which is the title of a book by Natalie Sudan, another NDE-er which I thoroughly recommend if you’ve not come across her before).
Thank you once again.
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Dear Christian
I am deeply humbled both by the content of your reply and also the time it would have taken you to write it 🙏🏽🙏🏽 Thank you so much.
Gosh, in some ways, it feels like we’re doing impossible work here, especially with what seems in 3D to be the amount of time it takes, but also I realise this lifetime is but a drop in the ocean.
I really appreciate the personal examples you’ve shared as this helps to understand a little of what’s involved practically and experientially in the work or how it might apply. I think my biggest fear is facing (processing) fear and feelings, which is a bit like saying I’m fearful of oxygen and food! I guess this stuff just goes with the territory 😊
I’m also aware though that this work develops attributes such as courage, perseverance, trust, etc.
Thank you for your encouragement. I’ll be reading your response several times to try to fully absorb the great depth and insight in it – and to continue the art of The Application of Impossible Things (which is the title of a book by Natalie Sudan, another NDE-er which I thoroughly recommend if you’ve not come across her before).
Thank you once again.
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Hi Christian,
I have been very interested in pre-birth memories after being engrossed with NDE’s. My issue is I am 100% under the veil. I never have any type of “spiritual experience.” I am still a big believer, but sometimes it is hard when I ask for a sign and get nothing. Do you have any advice for people like me?
Thanks
Kathy
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Hi Kathy! We are all the same; we are all veiled here, and we can all experience our higher natures when we are not so deeply associated with the forms of Earth (the sense data, the objects, the thoughts). I do try to speak to this question throughout my book, and particular in Part 4, it is available for free at the third link down on the book page. I hope that helps! 🙂
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Hi Christian,
thank you for your messages.
I have not found in your talks or your book a sufficient and practical discussion of a topic that I think you must have gone through, namely the contradiction between physically living life with its heavy density and knowing who you really are. I know, intellectually it can be answered that not contradiction but fusion is the response. But what I am interested in is how your attitude towards practical physical life, which Buddhists refer to as suffering, has gradually taken shape.
I have a similar experience to yours (I died alive), for several years I consciously rested behind the veil while the physical body did what it needed to do here on earth. But my persona has re-emerged in full force, the memories of that “golden age” period remain and it burdens me immensely to live that heaviness here on Earth. I work, I take care of my family, but it doesn’t have the sparkle, lightness and detachment that was experienced when I was dissolved in consciousness.
The contradiction between what I know and what I once lived and the compelling need to be engaged in the physical world is very painful.
Thank you in advance for responding here. (I would be grateful for a personal consultation)
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Great question. I’ve not had any NDE, OBE, etc, etcs, and even I can understand and feel the gist of what you’re saying so it must be even more acute for you. 🙏🏽🙏🏽
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Dear Sam, if you can understand and feel it, you have it, or better yet, you are it, you are very close to live your non-physical dimension in the physical consciously 😉
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I suspect the depth of your interlude into other portions of yourself is greater than what I can personally fully understand. But meanwhile just a few related comments about my own experience with this “reconciliation process” you describe just in case they help:
1. I am still very much veiled, and that does protect me. I am grateful for my veiling. In fact, many times I have felt called to “focus physically” in order to re-deepen the veil.
2. Regarding the intellect “contradiction” itself (great word)- It’s only a contradiction when the physical context is grasped into (“into” feels better than “onto” but both apply) as if it were real. In other words, it is precisely in the association with the reality of the physical (whereas in fact it is not fundamentally real) that contradiction occurs. Meanwhile, Third:
3. The state of limitation itself (biological limitation, cognitive limitation, location limitation etc.) that I personally experience while human is indeed extreme, and a very alien “taste to swallow.” In my own case however, I have found that my rejection of that was my own fear: and FULLY allowing the limitation has been incredibly liberating. “Power lies in accepting powerlessness”- and being human is a pretty powerless state, at least it seems so. We are here to exercise our most fundamental power- our power of intent- and that intention can be turned to one of full allowing and acceptance, EVEN of this ridiculously strange alienness. (Yes, it’s a “Grand Canyon” of vibrational distance between there and here. To fully accept it means spreading your legs so wide they are actually on both sides, and living with it, and letting yourself be OK living with it- in THIS now moment. Just THIS moment is all we have to worry about. We are so bold we even do that.)
4. The full acceptance of physical life, and full ownership of this experience, means getting up in the alien suit and doing all the practical things of life with full presence and ownership: going to work, eating the food, going to the bathroom, paying the bills, driving places (I often feel my ego stimulated by the mere requirement to physically move my body between every intermittent space when trying to go somewhere- how inefficient!). It sounds like you are already doing this, but I still think it’s important to re-mention in the context of this conversation.
Painful distance, yes. Can you accept THAT pain too? (THAT much expansion is possible.) 🙂
I hope that helps at least a little!
Meanwhile if you’d like to speak one-on-one, please email me at: awalkinthephysical@gmail.com. I have a lot of emails and similar requests right now but I will be happy to respond when I can! 🙂
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I’m not hijacking Valejan’s comment but I find your response so helpful and that every point/juncture is worthy of individual meditation/time to absorb etc. I must admit, while I do get the aid it is to just accept and focus on the physical, it’s weird to do that when it’s an illusion and also much zeitgeist spiritual culture to live the ‘other dimension’ (where our Higher soul is) through our bodies here. Hey ho!
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I understand Sam! 🙂 Sometimes in all the alien denseness we can easily forget that the physical is intentional and a high-value-potential experience. 🙂
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BTW Christian, I have recommended you to a lovely person who has a YouTube channel called Inspire Nation, that Michael possibly interview you? Here are the deets! https://www.youtube.com/@inspirenation
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Thank you, Christian, for your feedback.
First, let me shortly react to your points:
Ad1) Because you would be too far gone in the spirit? Because you would lose the ground under one of your feet while the other would be too high in the clouds?
Ad2) Yes, it is not real however you cannot deny that your feelings and inner dynamics have some kind of reality that imprints itself on the spirit. They are really experienced and they are all (fear…love) good.
Ad3) I don’t think that accepting one’s limitations is enough to make the pain of physical life go away when I know with deep experience who I really am. And yes, we are not a lower or higher vibration, we are a vibrational band.
Ad4) Yes, to be in the world, but not of it. Yes, I am in the physical world, and I’ve had some successes in the physical world, but it does not fulfill me knowing what I know because of what I have been given to experience.
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Christian, I feel that the answer I need to hear and which can help me is within you.
I’m going to try to ask the same question, but I’m going to try to rephrase it a little bit, please. If I know unshakably that the foundation of all that is is love, and I mean including all the terrible things a child/man/woman may experience on this planet, then why pay the bills, take care of my family, go to work, get out of bed, help other people, try to achieve something here, learn new languages (I’m from Prague and English is not my first language)? Why try to improve something, why be positive that in the bigger picture will turn out to be negative, why smile at others? Why did you, with your profound experience, decide to talk to others about these things when you know that everything is fine and that the physical world is an illusion? Why should I change, improve myself when I know that I was not born here? By ‘I’ I mean the body-mind, the persona, the identity that emerged ca. at the age of two. I mean the illusory one that is asking now. Thank you.
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Because the real you is experiencing the illusory you, and the real you can grow through the experience. (The human experience is actually valuable.) And because the real other beings are experiencing being human, and their journey is important (too). Even though it’s just a game, actually playing the game well (through fully present physical action and loving physical action) is using it for what it’s meant for. Until then, it’s just suffering through rejection of such an alien state. (Dismissal or rejection of the physical arises from fear, and fear is hell.) The most telling thing I noticed in your comments was your response “Ad3)” (“I don’t think that accepting one’s limitations is enough to make the pain of physical life go away when I know with deep experience who I really am.”). My comment is: yes, full and total acceptance of this dense and illusory state- including its pain!- *is* enough that the deep peace that is native to us can rise up and be experienced HERE. Your consciousness is deeper than the illusion- but if you reject the illusion, that is fear, and fear hurts like hell. Rejection means fear, which means opportunity to expand remains- you can run from that, but we come here precisely to be “forced” to face our own fear and imperfection (which can show itself as rejection or dismissal of the alien physical state). If you fully allow and accept the illusion, and fully participate in it, you can not only know full peace, but grow and expand in a very important way that will last past the end of the illusion. I hope that helps!
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1. Who decides the form(human/plant/animal) of re-incarnation ?
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The spirit chooses what it wants to experience.
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After the death of physical form, how long the being remains in the non-physical state ?
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Our linear time is not the same as “higher time”- “higher time” transcends linear time, and cannot be compared against it. In other words we cannot measure spirit by physical time. If there is some comparison, or some typical physical linear time duration between incarnations, I don’t know it.
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2. After the death of physical form of the being, how long does it stay in non-physical form ? is it mandatory to take a physical form ?
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Regarding “how long,” please see my response to your other comment. Regarding your second question, physical incarnation is not mandatory, the soul must voluntarily choose to incarnate for it to work (though this choice might seem invisible to a “lower” given personality portion of the self).
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Hi Christian,
First off, thank you so much for sharing your experience along with what you remember. I resonate with a lot that you tell us and actually have realized from your story why I have the expectations that I have.
One thing I have not seen yet has to do with children. From what I have listened, and please correct me if I am wrong and please point me to the right blog post, you were not “remembering” when you had your children. You started having your memories after having your kids.
Do you believe you would have lived the experience of becoming a dad differently had you remembered? Do you believe your parenting methods would have changed had you remembered? I often go back to the time when you say that when you were born, you would just look at the nurses with such love for taking care of you. It seems magical to look at a child’s life through their eyes.
How would you suggest we help our kids be who they are as they came to be who they are and experience what they came to experience, and not so much who we want them to be?
Thank you so much!
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Stephanie,
My son was born approximately at the same time as my awakening, so I did have some recognition of what I’ve shared when my children were very young. I have since shared with them very openly about my experience, and talking about the fact this is just a play is a common topic in our household. My son is now a teenager and my daughter nearly so, and they have never really been interested actually- at least not outwardly.
Regarding your last question, I can only provide some thoughts: I feel it is foremost to love kids *no matter what,* and to make sure they know their worth every day. To encourage them to fulfill their own purposes for coming I sometimes ask my kids, “So do you have any idea why you’re here?” and they answer “no,” but it gets them thinking. I’m commonly mentioned it’s normal not to remember here. I offer to support them if they ever “figure it out,” or if they ever have a strong intuitive nudge to do or be something. 😉 Even so, I have my own fear and ego, and I do have to commonly remind myself that the way I am attempting to teach them about daily matters may not be the best way that they need. I know they are powerful beings- and in fact sometimes, I’ve assumed they are more capable than they are (my wife gently reminds me of this). It’s difficult for me to think of them otherwise. It may sound too simple to say “tell them you will support them no matter what they choose in life” and let them be exactly who they are- but I do feel that is primary. I don’t know if any of those thoughts help but just sharing what comes to mind.
Thank you for your kindness!
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Christian,
I saw your interview on next level soul. It’s almost identical to everything I’ve experienced, the way I describe things. Watching you was shocking because it was like listening to myself. This is no coincidence. I already emailed you. We really need to speak more in depth about this. I have more information you may find very interesting.
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Hello everyone
I have depression state and suicidal thoughts because of appearance of my body and very rare desease.
A « ugly » appearance is an horrific « gift » because love is impossible…am I wrong ?
If love is the key, how deal with that and chronic pain ?
Thank you Christian for all you do.
I have studied during 15 years books of realized masters and all what you say is outstanding correct with theirs teachings.
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Dear JD
As a fellow traveller on this earth with you (in spirit), I am sending you heartfelt good wishes and hopes for much strength and support as you navigate your experience. May you truly know the love that you are.
Sam
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Hi JD,
If you listen carefully to Christian’s experience, he had a mission to reach with this last incarnation. His experience is that he let go of the first attempt and killed the fetus, yet had to come back to reach his goal. You’d probably have to do the same if you have not attained what you came to do.
Know that you should not concentrate on who loves you as who loves you is in their control. You will never have control over others. You have control of your own thoughts and self. You are able to love! You can love your hobbies, your dog, your job, your home… FOOD! The power is in you doing the act of LOVING. You have no control over being loved, so don’t look at this life that way.
Appreciate what you have, who you are, what you can accomplish and even what this earth brings you. Look at nature, have you ever seen a snowflake up close? Has a puppy ever licked your face? Have your feet been in the ocean?
We are so lucky to be here and experience these beautiful things. Seek what you can love and your life will change.
You have much to experience I am sure…
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JD,
Love is never impossible. No matter a given physical appearance, or limitation on our body, we always have the ability to choose *how* we will respond. I am a fan of the Bashar quote, “Circumstances don’t matter, only state of being matters.” Regardless of how others respond to you, you do have full power over what state of being you choose to bring to bear. That may be extremely difficult depending on our conditioning, our level of association with form (like with appearance), and our own fear (fear might possibly include our rejection of rejection)- but still, in this current moment, you always have the power to begin to set a new momentum. True beauty is in quality of being, not in a given shape. I am so sorry to hear that this journey is very difficult for you. But please be encouraged that you are in fact very, very valuable, and worthy of great love! Please recognize that in yourself first, before you mourn its apparent absence in the exterior world. Stay strong, your life is very meaningful indeed!
Also Sam and SF have made some valuable comments!
Christian
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Thanks you for all the response.
I hope the Lord will guide me to an another state of being in this life.
The journey is horrific but I know it is possible to overcome fears.
Thank you Christian for all
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People take astrological advices to know their future. As per astrological theory, planet positions rule the different aspects in the life of the human being like health, finances, relationships, hurdles, happiness, sorrow etc… What are views on taking such astrological advice for our well being ?
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Raj, I cannot comment on a given system for a given person- it is up to each person what Earthly system is helpful for them, and some people do benefit from astrology. 🙂 Just for me personally, I do not give it much credence. I do know there are energetic patterns that are occurring in consciousness space, I’m aware that Ra from the Law of One stated something to the effect that the astrological system was one of three human systems attempting to label certain energetic patterns taking place in our “logos” (his word for local system consciousness). I don’t follow astrology personally but I know it is helpful for many. 🙂
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Dear Christian,
I found an interview with Tom Campbell which you sometimes quote from. It’s my first encounter with this precious man. He’s great.
Anyway, he (and you) say that we are consciousness and that consciousness is evolving. But really? Isn’t the consciousness that we are and that is “evolving” just a fragment of a higher consciousness that is a fragment of the total consciousness that is complete, evolved, and including all that we call negative? I can agree that we are consciousness, but I have a hard time agreeing (even if I understand) that consciousness evolves/expands. From the standpoint of the One, from the standpoint of All-That-Is, from the perspective of God, from the Perspective of all perspectives, from the Intention of all intentions, from the standpoint of Total Consciousness – of which we are a fragment – there is no need, no evolution, no expansion (where to?), no exclusion, just love. Everything is good, even hell.
So from a practical / human point of view, why be compassionate, grateful, loving, connecting, warm (e.g. positive), why not be evil, greedy, fighting, separating, morose, fearful (e.g. negative)? After all, negative and positive are equally valuable.
On the other hand, why do all the saints who have crossed the polarity tell us to be kind, if it is not wrong to be selfish in God?
Thank you very much.
Much appreciation for your voice and service.
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Velajan,
Your question is a broad one, and I wrote A Walk in the Physical to attempt to speak to the “why” and the value of becoming human. I do hope you will find some content in the book that may help. We do evolve; the refinement of Being is an expansion of personal and collective power, capacity, capability, knowing, understanding- and ultimately, the expansion of joy and love. Contrast itself is a creative tool. When we come across a being who has “mastered” the physical, we are aware of the incredible depth of that being, and so we may choose to participate in that ourselves. Below are just two questions from Part 3 Q&A section that might be pertinent for you. Take care! 🙂
-Christian
Q: If our souls are already perfect and already know everything, why do we come into this life for experiences and “growing up”? After we die, if we will wake up and understand everything, why do we need to have earthly life experience, and why do we need to wake up again to that which we already know?
– Those first two statements sound paradoxical, but actually they are not. The soul evolves as its “experience vocabulary” expands. It comes here to have this experience and expand its nature (of love and joy) through that experience. Meanwhile, the soul is simultaneously perfect, and at the soul level has access to all information (which is not the same as all experiential evolution). The learning we come to do is experiential, not intellectual.
Q: If our souls are already perfect, why do we need to come and be physical and work towards ascension? Why do we need to evolve?
– Beingness itself is already perfect; there is nothing the soul “needs” to do. Then, as the soul chooses to engage realities of form (realities of duality), at any given “time” it is only “so good” at actualizing its true loving nature within a given context of form (within any given biological and circumstantial context). As the soul integrates experience and evolves its ability to wield intent (make choices) based on love rather than fear, a tremendous expansion of capability, joy, and love occurs. All That Is becomes more. That process is not required, but it is chosen because the soul decides it is worth doing. To participate in the expansion of joy is not required, but joy is its own reward. (113)
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Thank you very much, Christian.
Intellectually, I still don’t get it.
Experientially, yes.
When the persona disappears and only the Being remains, love pours out and overflows and spills everything, even the hell of the untamed intellect.
For this reason, and this reason alone, as an identity with a sense of separateness in the virtual game of our physical reality, I lean very slightly (perhaps only 51%) towards the idea that the conscious direction towards love is also the actual direction of our soul. In other times and spaces of the multiverse, where universes emerge, split, crumble because they want/need to, souls will probably prefer to split, separate, crumble, i.e. to move away from the source (from which they never really separate) as their way of expansion.
PS: I recently bought your book on Amazon. Looking forward to digesting it 🙂
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I just happened upon an interview with you on You Tube ( NLS ) and stayed for the whole thing! My mother had a miscarriage before getting pregnant with me and I’ve often thought that it was me, and I pulled the plug, but was then sent back. I have had a faint memory of looking down from way above and being told by someone next to me that I “had to go”.
So, I have conflict with the notion of it always being a choice. I cannot fathom why I would have chosen this life and often feel like god’s pet, left neglected in a cage on a shelf. But yes, I have odd memories of doing things once, but way easier than this slow manner in which we humans must execute our activities. It is cumbersome, this human meat suit. In your opinion is it always a choice to come back? I know I’ve done this before …
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The core choice (“first choice”) is always a choice we make freely; the soul always must make a choice to commit into an incarnative experience. Once we commit into a process though (for instance the human experience) we have surrendered a portion of ourselves into that commitment, and thus, what may subsequently seem like a “not choice”/ forced return (to the personality level of us) may occur. Meanwhile, if you feel neglected in the cage (a common feeling here!), please know that you are far more than these limitations or the story/ meaning that *you* are putting on them. So often it is the story, and the negative self perceptions we feel this story proves to us, that hurts- not the highly limiting bars themselves. I hope that helps!
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Yours is the next book I shall read, as soon as it arrives from Amazon!
I have so many questions but will wait until after I have read it. I am energized by the way you put this knowledge into words. It can be difficult to trust oneself in knowing these things privately. I keep clawing at the veil and tiny rips occur which testify to this truth, ( and I experience something which lets me know for a second that what you say is true ) but these illuminations are always outside of my control, fleeting , and can easily seem like illusions. Then they get dismissed by the human condition.
Thank you for your reply to my comment, it means a lot. I feel less alone.
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Dear Christian,
I had a remembrance 4-5 years ago of my incarnation process and a bit of pre-birth experience and encounter with an immense Being that scared the sh#t of om during the experience.
It left me with depression for 2 years during which I had a hard time finding the point of my incarnation as I remember the flavours and tastes of our state before: love, gold, joy, light, vastness, etc…To me, it feels that my incarnation is a punishment that I didn’t choose. I remember clearly how much and how strongly I didn’t want to be here. Still having the thoughts and the strong desire to go back there asap. Would you have any recommendation / process / person to help shifting my experiences please?
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Chris,
Thank you for your comment sir. I’ll just share a couple brief comments! Regarding your physical experience being “punishment you didn’t choose”: Once the soul commits into a personality’s experience, that commitment is set, and so to the personality portion of the self it can feel like one is “forced” to the physical. At the deepest level we are never forced. It’s a little like, if we commit to climb Mount Everest, and then find ourselves all the way over in Nepal at the bottom of the mountain, wow now we don’t want to climb that thing, but we’re already committed (!) and the guides might push us up the mountain. Regarding a shift in your experience now that you are here: I do feel my book A Walk in the Physical may help (it is available for free at the third link down on the book page of this site if you are interested), as it is meant to help connect the reader with the part of themself that is already peace, freedom, love, and joy! Meanwhile when you are not experiencing that, just very briefly here: Notice that it is your own (1.) rejection (which is an expression of fear), and (2.) story-meaning/ thought-perception you are putting onto the story, that hurts. The limitation of the physical may be a very high state of limitation- but it is neutral. You apply the meaning; you get to choose how to respond to it in this moment. Metaphorically if you are in a straight jacket, you can freak out in the straight jacket, or you can release and surrender to being straight-jacketed. In our case, if we FULLY do the latter (fully surrender and accept!), we may find that the freedom of our true nature never left us in the first place! (the straight jacket was something of an illusion anyway!)- it was our own fear, our own rejection of the human condition, that hurt so bad. Regarding a process, I highly recommend taking up a long term meditation practice (I suggest one in Part 4 of the book): as we investigate what we are beneath ALL thinking, and as we grow in awareness of what we really are (awareness itself!) versus what we are not (our thoughts!), the peace and freedom and joy of our true nature rises back up all on its own. Peace and freedom and joy are native to your consciousness itself. I’m a fan of the Bashar quote, “Circumstances don’t matter, only state of being matters.” I hope that helps sir!
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thank you for taking the time to answer. I am grateful that you share about this pre-birth experience as it helps tremendously people like me who had a similar experience with missing bits I’d say. The revealing of the “veil”, as you named it, is pretty tough to integrate.
I started reading your book yes thanks.
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Hi Christian,
I am listening to the latest podcast you posted today.
I have to say, I love your laugh. Every time I listen to your talks, I am often just stopped from whatever I am doing at the time and am just attracted to your laugh. It is giddy, and heart felt and very alluring.
Just sayin’! Keep laughing!
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First of all, I really love your book. It’s one of the things that have brought me a little peace this past year and grateful for finding it.
I’ve had more memories uncovered myself and my biggest challenge is knowing how to find connections with others (others with whom we actually resonate). I’m also a professional person (healthcare leadership) and have to make a lot of pragmatic decisions in my life. Not good or bad. It just was.I live in New England, but grew up in the Midwest. I have made some very independent life choices in recent years to align with my own understanding of truth within myself, but I still don’t seem to fit with most “woo” folks. I occasionally feel glimpses, but I feel a lot of “sales” energy from people which doesn’t feel like full truth or it makes it harder to connect I suppose. It’s not that selling things (or buying things) is “bad”, but an energy I’m just not looking to connect on.
In recent years, I started on a more intentional path to work through my own PTSD. Then I had another big trauma in the middle of it in 2019. I had many times in years past where I was suicidal, but knowing I have to play this out and learn what I need to learn. Anyway in 2021, I apparently decided to challenge myself and went through the trifecta of EMDR, conscious use of a plant medicine about every 3 months, and started a semi regular meditation practice. Lots of things happened and I apparently released my own Kraken. In Oct 2021, I had a spontaneous Kundalini Energy surge (i.e. what some say awakening). I’m tuned into truths about myself, about others, at a much higher level. I feel everyone’s energy now and it’s like nails on a chalkboard with most people. Even those I love I have to be mindful and do so much more self care. It’s like I can’t live with the masks any longer. I feel like the princess in the Princess and the Pea, but with energy.
Then I started to remember. Some really hard things that I wouldn’t have been ready for previously. Also a clear memory of being 4 years old and just before I lost the memories of before (birth), I got this one second to hold onto. I remember a clear feeling of bliss, awareness of myself as a conscious being, and saying to myself, “Wow! This is my body and life. Ok, this will be interesting!” I’ve connected with past lives in meditation, but it wasn’t so much even MY past lives, but able to connect with energies on a spirit plane/ astral plane type place and take in the pain of others as a choice, feel everything about them, and then provide love and forgiveness so they can learn or move forward in some way. I see how things fit together on a higher scale, but I can’t easily hold onto that understanding. So much more than this., but keeping it short. I go back and forth between wanting this and being overwhelmed, but Pandora’s Box was opened and now I have to figure out that part of my journey moment by moment.
Question. How does one find community? Like in-person type community? For the woo folks that aren’t historically woo? I have a few people I can talk to a little who aren’t judgey about it, but they can’t fully understand because they haven’t experienced it themselves. Mostly, I’m reading and learning a lot – your book, gnostic Christian texts and translations, Buddhist teaching,NDEs, and more. I’m currently reading My Big T.O.E. (slowly there). What do YOU do to find community?
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Hi Sarah,
thank you for your sharing.
I had the same question years ago, though in another context, and my teacher at that time simply asked me: why don’t you create your community? How would you be like with a community you inspired and created?
Just sharing my 2 cents.
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Thanks, Chris. I appreciate your feedback. 😊 The next steps to create in-person community is the magical question. I have no doubt I “could” because I tend to be a person who is able to make things happen (“manifest” as one might say), but I want to avoid anyone thinking I’m any sort of authority. I have a virtual community I became involved with a few months ago that resonates well in terms of my belief structure and fortunately have very open friends and family. I’m exploring some local meetups related to meditation groups as well. I think it might involve time and more meditation myself in the whole discernment process of just what that means and how to discern what will work for me on my own path to do this.
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This is sometimes something that I struggle with too. The relative prevalence of the unawakened state on Earth can feel very isolating and confusing. I personally struggle also with all the functions in society that do not align with the connected truth of our being: our society is (currently) quite immature with how it handles, for instance, medicine, the quality of information dissemination, focus or action type prioritization (for instance materialism over self development), even advertising. Our ubiquitous confusion seems to reinforce the sense of separation.
Just two thoughts about finding in person community:
1. I have found that as you allow yourself to “be in the vibration that you actually are,” connection opportunities tend to arrive. A full acceptance of your actual state, and full comfort with who you really are (awakened, sensitive, alert), tends to (energetically/ vibrationally) promote resonant interactions. This happens automatically, when you are in that state- and not only automatically, but also, it is helpful while in that state to actively seek out others, in whatever context seems intuitively appealing. (It’s important to follow intuition in this, because connections may be available in certain social situations that might not be apparent.) Also don’t be overwhelmed by need for “size”- even a small quantity of high quality connection is wonderful and relieving.
2. This may sound counter-intuitive, but: I have found meditation to be very helpful. Why? Because the apparent separation is just a deep story- and as you grow in awareness of who you really are (consciousness itself!), connectedness is ALWAYS there. So, we have community right now!- and that can be tangibly felt when we are closer to our natural state. In other words, the connectedness is always there, so when we stop associating so deeply with our separation-based thoughts and identities, we can actually feel it and know it. We are connected to everything and everyone, all the time; in fact even physical distance itself isn’t really fundamentally real. It can be very relieving to actually FEEL that connection; the veil can’t prevent it completely, because it is our true nature right now. I actually recently spoke about this very topic at a local Unity church (about sensing the unity of being even while we are veiled), once that video is available I will post it on this site, perhaps that may be helpful.
Take heart Sarah! I relate- and you (we) are not alone. We are brothers and sisters; our bonds are strong. The awakening (to our unified nature) is happening all over the Earth right now- nothing “woo” about it. 🙂 (I appreciated your reference to “woo folks that aren’t historically woo” lol!)
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Thank you, Christian! Meditation isn’t counter intuitive at all. Honestly, I’ve found that when my own meditation practice is regularly done, answers unfold on their own timeline. I just need to remind my human self that there’s no rush and time isn’t relevant, but human Sarah can be, “Holy wow! I’ve had these amazing experiences. I want to explore and talk about ALL THE THINGS NOW!” Historically, I tend to be sort of a magnetic person where far too many people have tended to initially pedestalize me for assorted reasons, but I’m human (so very, very human 😂), so I want to be cautious.
I guess what I mean by this is that my life experience has been that if I want to connect in some way, it’s easy for me to make my desired connection. I’m just not sure what that is yet when it comes to my increasing spiritual practice and awakening. I need to embrace the unknown and just flow in that general direction (as with most things). My ego used to often just leap without looking when this happened in all sorts of ways. I want to use my powers of attracting people, things, and connections cautiously (if that makes sense) so I’m trying to really look at my own levels of discernment in terms of my engagement with others and how best to do this. As for the “woo folks that aren’t historically woo”, that gets complex sometimes, doesn’t it? I’m trying to learn to embrace the things about me that aren’t so simple, but as with anything, even that comes down to loving one’s self in all our uniqueness rather than feeling “weird” or “wrong” for not being anyone else’s idea of who we should be.
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Great comments! Please let me know if there is any way I can help! 🙂
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Hi Christian, just bought your book, can’t wait to start listening to it. I’ve always been very energy and soul oriented. I’ve seen signs in my life trying to nudge me more towards developing or exploring my energetic skills. It would seem you had the same feeling and started your “long term meditation practice.” I read that in part 4 of the book you recommend a place to get started. Can you offer any other insight into this process, or let me know where you’ve answered this question before so I can research it further. I’ve always felt this is what I need to do, and finding your videos and book seem to be another “nudge” that I need to do this.
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Nice to meet you Brandon! Part 4 of the book is the only place I’ve commented on details of a recommended meditation practice, at least so far. I’m giving some thought about any more extensive comments I might provide elsewhere. I find meditation very difficult to speak to, though.
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Thanks for your prompt reply. I get it about finding it difficult to speak about meditation. I think most folks clear their mind and just try to sit in that quietness and sit there wondering if they’re “doing it right” since enlightenment or answers don’t immediately come. I’m in the group, lol. If you had a method or intention that ultimately lead to success, then I want to at least start from there. Out of respect for your time, I think I need to listen to your book first and see what you say in Part 4 before I ask any more questions. I think it’s likely you probably gave enough detail there to give me a good start, I just need to give it a listen.
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I love you!!!
Your story makes me so happy every time I watch it, I bawled the first time you talked about being reminded by source that you will never not be everything that you are…your story is the first time I’ve ever felt that and known that, the first time that I felt in my heart and body that I am really not alone….I am obsessed with you, your story, your audiobook and Next Level Soul Podcast, I am gonna listen to you read the book whilst also reading it once I receive the physical book…I can’t wait!! Thank You for being You!!
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Hi Christian,
thank you so much for sharing your pre-birth memories with the world – they are so fascinating and precious in allowing us a glimpse of the bigger picture.
I am wondering about two questions that you’ve probably been asked many times.
The first is about your thoughts on suicide. From your perspective, is suicide a mistake that cuts a soul’s life plan/lessons short? Or does it depend on the circumstances? Or do you think it can even be part of a soul’s plan to exit a lifetime? What are its consequences?
The second question concerns your opinion on distressing near-death experiences. Are there ‘lower realms’ in the afterlife, and how/why would a soul ‘go’ there?
Thank you so much for your input and many greetings from Germany 🙂
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Diana,
Thank you for your kindness!
Regarding your two questions, I have sections in Part 3 of A Walk in the Physical the book (Q&A section) dedicated to these two questions, it is available to be read for free at the third link down on the book page of the site. The Suicide section is short, the Hell section is longer. I was going to paste some of those excerpts below but I thought it best to point to those sections. I’ll still make some brief comments here in case they are helpful, since elements of your first question are not included in the book entry:
Regarding your suicide question: I would rarely use the word “mistake” to describe the outcome of a life, though it is possible that a soul may make more fear-based choices in a given life and be overcome such that it might end a life path short of other potential outcomes. That being said, it is also possible that suicide is a soul’s plan for exit. I am reminded of the book The Afterlife of Billy Fingers, for example. Regarding “consequences”- all intention, all thoughts, all choices have consequences, including those choices we might make from great fear that may hurt many others (as suicide often does). That being said, ALL things take place within complete and total UNconditional love! Everything is understood- fully!- and we are always, always loved, no matter what. Suicide though is not an escape, as the fear that gives rise to that decision is yet with us and thus will still “need” to be confronted in a future experience (so in most cases, why not face it now?).
Regarding your hell question: I do recommend visiting the Hell portion of Part 3 of the book. In short: Thought responsive realities respond to our own fear, beliefs, and expectations. So fear, beliefs, or expectations may create (temporarily) very hellish reality experiences for the individual. In other words, hellish experiences can happen not only on Earth, but also in other thought responsive systems. ALL realities of form no matter their level of contrast, however, are fully transcended by the much more fundamental reality, which is complete and total unconditional love, freedom, and joy. Love, freedom, and joy is always our true nature, no matter how far we may venture into realms of great contrast for awhile.
I hope that helps! 🙂
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Thank you so much for your kind and detailed response. I am really grateful for the time and consideration you have given to my questions.
What you wrote about suicide as a fear-based decision makes sense to me in terms of life situations that can be overcome or coped with internally in some way, such as family or addiction problems, poverty, heartbreak, etc. But what about, for example, extremely agonizing physical illnesses that have no prospect of recovery? Is suicide here also fear-based or not even a likely outcome?
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Actions themselves (including suicide) are not charged. What is the charged is the intention behind them. I hope that speaks to your question. 🙂
Meanwhile just personally, very generally speaking I support euthanasia: death is not a big deal, and I do personally feel it is often merciful to end a sufferer’s life in the face of only remaining suffering and pain. (That being said, I also respect the teachings of the guide Silver Birch who says that a soul should always be allowed to reach physical death in the most natural fashion.)
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Thank you again for your kind reply, which has comforted me to some extent. My sister took her own life after suffering a rare neurotoxic reaction to a drug. Her simptoms were similar to those you experienced as a student in China, she described an unbearable burning sensation and constant pain throughout her entire body, a myriad of other symptoms and permanent despair. After two and a half years, she decided to leave. We talked about it and she said she didn’t feel she had a choice and that if there was a hell, she would just change locations. Nothing would make me sadder than to know she was in a distressing reality created by her feelings of guilt or despair. Or having to face that horror again in another life. She was only 40 years old and would have so loved to live her life. Sorry for rambling and thanks again for our gift to us! 🙂
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I am so very sorry about your loss. Please know that underneath all pain is absolute and total unconditional love, acceptance, joy, and freedom. That is always the truth, no matter how our physical life may end! There is unfathomable understanding and compassion for what we endure here. Please take heart.
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Thank you Christian!!
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Hi, I searched through all these comments and did not see an answer about this one.
I am familiar with all your story and have seen several of the interview videos about it.
I am very much an ally and not antagonistic toward what you are sharing.
My own daughter visited me about 4 months before I got pregnant so I am onboard with these ideas.
I am not onboard with using animals or eating animals, as you say they have the same souls as us, and are spiritually no different, and that could not be more true.
I hear “spiritual” people saying that go ahead and murder and harm and consume animals because it’s part of their soul journey. This kind of justification of evil and maladjustment is sickness.
I want to ask if you wear and consume animals Christian, and I don’t mean this as an antagonistic challenge, I just need to know.
Thank you
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Hi Christian
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Hi Christian,
My name is Adam and I am a third year medical student who really resonated with your story.
I have now been on the beginnings of a meditation journey as I try to face my own fears that I have come here to challenge and I just thought I’d ask about your path through meditation.
The more you ventured down your meditation path from, calming of thought flow, to sitting in a quiet mind, how did the first higher level experiences approach you?
Did you just suddenly have an out of body experience one day, or suddenly have a flash of forgotten memories?
Just curious as to how you transitioned from your early days of basic meditation practice, to the experiences you have to day through meditation.
Sincerely,
Adam
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Hi Adam!
The first non-physical experience I had in the early days of awakening happened after a dream while I was asleep. In the dream I was going to be killed by a huge wave, and I told myself, “OK this is it, you are going to die, leave your body”- and suddenly I was wide awake (though my body wasn’t) and I was stuck in a state of incredibly intense vibrations and loud sound for about 15 seconds. It sounded like someone had parked a jet engine on either side of my head- that’s how loud it was! When I awoke I jumped out of bed, I was very startled. That experience was so intense and real it was frightening- but I also felt encouraged to continue my meditation practice. This experience happened maybe 3 to 6 months after I had begun meditating for about 40-60 minutes per day.
Future experiences began to arise in varying ways: sometimes while I was awake and alert during meditation I began to experience profound shifts in my body (the body of awareness), other times I might be in a lucid dream and then it might expand into something more. Sometimes when I was awake and walking around, in an alert and clear state, I would just suddenly “get information,” or feel things about someone as if they were myself. That would happen more often if I had been deeply meditating recently and was more alert, and much less often if I became re-focused-into the world of form (asleep in constant thoughts, etc.).
The pre-birth memory was just suddenly “there,” basically all at once, maybe within a year or so of beginning the meditation practice: it was very unlikely Earthly memory, much more full and deep and real, and it felt both incredibly ancient and also alive like it was happening right now. Despite its richness, it didn’t seem strange, but rather, it was like the most normal thing in the world, extremely personal and already known. It was like someone had just blown leaves off of the ground and there was the ground- just very normal!
I think it’s important to mention that it’s not like some new strange thing arrived to the normal thing of me being human, as if the normal thing was the human perspective; but rather, I had already been moving *towards* my awareness, deeply, which is what I really am- and that was automatically and unintentionally a move *away* from the association with the forms of the human perspective (a letting go of focusing on thoughts). I don’t know how to describe that but it is important because the non-physical experiences arose very naturally because I had *already*… “let go” of what I am not (the human character/ the thoughts/ the stories etc.). (That doesn’t necessarily need to take a long time, it can happen in any instant.)
As for “how did the experiences or memory arrive”- how does any form arrive into awareness? 🙂 That is, once one gains familiarity with how thoughts arise, sense data arises, feelings arise, etc. onto the movie screen of awareness- it is also possible for “other channels” (ones even more real than this reality!) to arise on their own, too- because we aren’t just the human, we are much larger than that, even right now. It is our deep and incessant *association with* the form here and the thought that keeps it as our sole experience.
One last quick comment sir: One practical tip I might recommend if you are interested in moving in that direction is- when not in meditation, take on the habit throughout your normal waking daily life here and there to pause, become alert, and ask yourself, “Is this real? Am I dreaming? How do I know all this is real?”- and don’t “think an answer” but rather investigate in your awareness. Just look/ experience, even for 10 seconds. In other words, practice evaluating the realness of the data that has arisen. As you do this, you might find yourself at some point awake in a non-physical environment, perhaps while the body is asleep, having a similar thought of evaluation (and the realness is so real it can be ridiculously difficult to tell the difference!).
I hope that helps sir!
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Christian,
Thank you so much for sharing your experience/journey so vividly.
As I continue to grow through meditation it is incredibly helpful hearing how some of these experiences arose in your journey.
I will indeed try to incorporate a short awakened evaluation here and there throughout my days. Maybe as I wash my hands, I can evaluate the feeling of the water, the temperature and my surroundings for realness of the data. I appreciate this tip as it gives me some direction to continue my journey of awakening and the triumph over fear. It still likes to sneak in once in a while to remind me to keep it (fear) in check.
I appreciate you and your story,
Adam
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Hi Christian,
Thank you for the message you have brought to the world. It’s so comforting and helpful.
I’ve seen many of your interviews and I’ve read your whole book.
My burning question is this:
How does what you teach integrate with non-duality teachings?
I can elaborate if needed.
I thank you greatly for your time!
Kristin
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Hi Kristin! I feel that what I share is in support of non-duality teachings. In fact the book is my attempt to “bridge the gap” between the formless nature of Being which transcends all form (the nondual)- and yet speak to the value of the worlds of form and contrast, and how and why nondual Beingness utilizes that non-native Creation of form. In a sense I consider nonduality the “purest teaching.” One of my passions is attempting to bridge the nondual teaching into the experience of form, including as seen from higher realities of form (from which we may make incarnation plans for instance; we transcend those too). I hope that helps! If you have specific questions please let me know and I’ll do my best to attempt to comment. Thank you! 🙂
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Hope all is well Christian! Thank you again for putting your story, personal as it is, out for all to learn from. Also, thanks for your time answering my questions via email! I always wish you the very best and can’t wait to see if you have anymore “remembering” that you can further share.
As you say: Thank you for being human!
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After reading your book, and seeing many of your podcasts, I’ve not seen you talk about “walk-ins that Ruth Montgomery spoke about. I have friends who have memories of not coming into the Earth through birth, but rather through assuming a body that was older under various circumstances. Can you speak about this?
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Hello! I am aware that walk-ins happen (that is, that a soul may “take over” playing a life from a given point). I once had a one-on-one with someone who was a walk-in, she described in great detail the “soul exchange” between the body’s former player and herself, and the “download” of getting all the character’s “up until that point” information at the point of incarnation engagement. I think the body was around 17 years old or so in her case. I’ve also come across at least one instance where an infant was struggling with being human, the soul decided to abandon the journey, and a new soul took over, very early in life. Anyway, while I have not personally experienced this to my knowledge, I am aware that it happens, though I am not certain how common (possibly very rare?) it is. I hope that helps!
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